My counselor explained to me how my brain works and suggested I be on medication. And I wanna b that person on insta whose like “hey world I have mental issues and it’s totes normal and ok and I’m considering medication” just so I can be there for someone who is going though the same thing. But it’s like… it’s not. I don’t live in a world where that is normal. I live in a world where having a mental disorder is shamed, a taboo, and swept under the rug. Throwing a fuckin vacuum at the head of another human is more normal than admitting “hey I have mental issues”
On top of that. My parents r racist. And I feel really bad for my boyfriend.
My boyfriend is such a nice warm positive human being. I feel like I can’t tell him anything and if/when I do, I feel like shit afterwards like damn why the fuck did I say anything now he thinks I’m stupid and annoying and then I just shit on myself and I go to bed hoping to never wake up.
My boyfriend is so positive and I can’t keep up with him. Sometimes I feel like he’s trying to convince me to live a lie where life is nice and clean and pretty but it not. It’s fucking not all the time.
It’s just not. I understand it’s persective.
And my perspective right now is that it’s shitty. I’m a shitty person. I’m stupid and really worthless. And I feel like no one wants to hear it. Because I should be… “more positive.”
But I’m not. Is that okay? Is that okay for you? I’m not. I’m really not. I’m a fucking lie.
Dr. Willie Parker, who is trained as a gynecologist and OBGYN, is a hero for the pro-choice movement because he’s honest about the undiscussed aspects of getting (or not getting) an abortion. Watch how he gives a consultation.
That last statement about regret is so important, because so many people don’t understand what it is or what causes it. Anti-choicers exploit this by manipulating pregnant people and creating doubt, which only increases the likelihood of regret, no matter what decision the pregnant person makes. You know what is best for you, even if it takes some time to figure it out.
